and I'm Feeling Fine ......

I cannot remember what that lyric is from - I just googled it and got a bunch of listings ..... feh.

As I move through the clairvoyant training program I started just now over a year ago I periodically look at the goals I had in mind for myself when I began the program. The one that sticks out is 'to manifest my inward creativity outwardly'.

So what about that, and what about music - my creation of music - and what about this urge I have and have had since I was a little girl to design clothing?

I was chatting with a friend at the bar last night. He makes films, does carpentry, writes and of late is making surf boards and spending a lot of time surfing. We were sort of reviewing what each of us was up to work wise, creatively, etc.. It seems that in the end both of us are more inclined to spend time doing things that are *fun* - for my pal it's surfing and making boards for me it's clairvoyant stuff and at this point figuring out how I'm going to learn to design clothes.

And yet I know I can make music - so what's the rub - why isn't the thought of it fun and don't I have the tools to shift any of the blocks and baggage that I associate with making music?

Another friend told me recently that he couldn't live without the experience of working with one of his bands. I think I used to *think* I felt that way. As it turns out not only am I still alive but I'm feeling fine.