Creativity == Risk
I have this idea - and I refer to it specifically as an idea as ideas can be scrapped, changed, embellished upon, manifested etc. etc.. that following my creative instincts or maybe it's my instincts to be creative would be extremely risky. It seems that somewhere in my mind to embark upon anything under a notion that cannot be proven right and backed up with towers of intellectual approval is asking for trouble.
Who is that trouble from - myself - my own crippling judgment.
Where does this come from - hmmmmm - I think a past life as a scientist who was a naesayer of Galileo maybe or perhaps as someone who was responsible for ensuring the livelihood and longevity of the Catholic Church.
Whenever I think about allowing my instincts to really take the driver's seat in my life I immediately start up the mathematics and measurement systems in my head. "Ohhhhh - now, what's the likelihood of success or failure based on the square root of the creative wonks per capita in the Bay Area? Hmmmmmmm ..... perhaps it'd be better to move to Idaho." And it all ends right there - in fact I can see my instincts and creativity shrink up and slide away.
